I was looking at you while you were sleeping for the first time in my life....

Every day I come home after my work or studies...
I just run to my upstairs...
Do my own work...
Have my dinner..
Then just run to the bed...

She comes and put the net...
clean my bed...
Sometimes everything is dine when I go home..
I just have to jump on to my bed..

I wake up in the morning...
Just get ready...
I just go to the office...
Eat the yummy meals that she has prepared...

I never get time to thank her...
Talk to her...
praise her...
I'm a dumb ass...

but I should say...
Last night I suddenly wake up...
Amma you were sleeping by my side...
A dim light was fallen on to your face...
I saw that you are a pretty lady who tries to give the best to children...
Amma you were sleeping like a kid...
After a tiresome work amma...
I know everyday you are going through hell of work...
Hell of pain... Hell of problems...
You never let me feel that amma..

I just got close to her and kissed her and hugged her...
because I know amma, Its ages that I did it since I did last time...
It was when I was a small kid...
When we grow up we forget our parents sometimes...
Amma I love you so much..
I know I have given you and still giving you hell of pain...

but sometimes I'm lost...
I have made some bonds which always pull me back...
I'm sorry if I do anything which hurts you amma...
May be this is what I meant to be and what I'm supposed to go through...

The twilight of your face which I saw last night...
Will never forget amma...
Because what suddenly got in to my mind was, on a day that you close your eyes forever, I will see that the way you have closed your eyes...
But you wont feel the way I kissed and hugged you with the affectionate...
I never see that you close your eyes, its because you wake up before I wake up and sleep before I sleep...
You never show you are tired though you are sick amma...

I promise amma,
That I'm gonna kiss you and hug you often hereafter...
Whenever I can, I will wake up and look at you are sleeping...
Amma I know you are the best Mother on this earth...
Because you never let me feel you are sick or uncomfortable though I have the habit of telling every sickness of me to you...
God must have given you that power and energy...

To work hard for us...
I never thought that I should let you sleep at least one day till the dawn...
That's my selfishness...
Oh GOD let me give that energy to treat and look after her in the same way she does to me...
I need that power and the marvelous energy now...

Not on a day that I become a mother...
Then I will have more bonds and I would be timeless with them...

I did a big mistake...

He was my best friend...
He was amazing...
He was the most caring guy that I had ever seen in my life...
He was superb...

I liked him a lot...
I loved him a lot...
I wanted him to be mine forever...
He was awsome as a friend...

Why I wanted to keep him with me???
The rest of my life to spend with him???
Why I thought like that???
Why I was so selfish???

That was the biggest mistake I did in my life...
I thought that my best friend should be my boy friend...
Isn't it a big mistake I did in my life???
Why I thought that our attitudes and feelings will counterpart???

Why I never thought that there's a huge gap in between a friend and a boy friend???
Why couldn't I keep him satisfied???
Why couldn't I keep his interest in me???
What went wrong???

But Baby, I really need you back as my best friend...
Don't leave me on the middle of the road like this...
I was living for you and breathing for you past few years...
Please stay as my best friend...

I promise you...
I will never ever express or fall in love with you...
I need my best friend...
Not my Boyfriend...
I miss you so much...

I did a big mistake...
That's LOVE...
I need you so much...
But its just as my best friend...


L and of sorrows...
O cean of tears...
V alue of troubles...
E nd of life...

This is what you call love!!!

Just go out with a partner,
who loves you a lot, not that you love....
Who misses you a lot, not that you miss...
Who cares you a lot, not that you care about....
Who wants to see you, not that you wants to see...
Who dies for you, not that you die for...
Who never hits you, never insults you, never hurts you, never give a pain...
Your love will come to you and if you have got it, just protect it...
If you are with the wrong person, just get out of it!!!

Its gone n looking forward for a new life....

I cried a lot...
I worried a lot...
I begged you a lot...
But you never listened...

I was being cheated a lot...
I was being beaten a lot...
I was being scolded a lot...
But you never regret...

I loved you a lot...
I missed you a lot...
I cared you a lot...
But you never did that back to me...

I wanted to see you...
I asked you to come...
I praised you a lot...
But you never give a damn about that...

I cursed my self...
I apologized for everything...
i came behind you again...
But you never saw a worth in it...

You hurt me a lot...
You hit me a lot...
You lied to me a lot...
But I always forgave you...

Time is flying...
More than three years went on...
But still you couldn't give what I wanted...
So whats the point of being like this...

I was painful a lot...
I suffered a lot...
I can't tolerate anymore...
I went through a pain that noone should go...

Oh GOD...
Is this my faith?
Is this my life?
Is this my future?

Oh GOD...
I'm asking you thousands times...
Why you let me feel this?
Should I deserve this?

Oh GOD...
I'm ouuta that pain now...
But memories killing me...
Don't I deserve a love again?

Oh GOD...
Whats the sin I have done?
Please make me strong enough...
Thats all I need...

Oh GOD...
Where is the love I expected?
Why am I so desperated?
Why I feel so alone now?

Please help me...
I need someone to talk now...
I need someone to share my pain...
I need someone to care me about...

I need to be cared...
I need to be loved...
I need to be liked...
I need the person I was looking for...

Wheres the love I expected?
Someone likes my mother...
Someone likes my father...
Someone likes my best friend...

I feel I'm the most unluckiest girl on this earth now...
GOD... Please
MAKE ME STRONG AND BRING A LIFE BACK TO ME...
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It’s all about my love for you from the day I started knowing you…

While I was sleeping,

I heard the ring of an angel’s

I called it as angel’s,

Coz it’s the first time I got,

A sweet little message…

I never thought that,

It would be the start of my life…

Would give me a meaning…

To hold the time back...

Would open a way,

When I’m feeling more alone…

When the time passes,

I saw you existing,

To get a new life,

Full of hopes, dreams with a blend of love…

It was the beginning of my dream..

You got the reason for living…

When I saw you for the first time,

I felt that you are giving all your charms to me,

I felt that it’s only you can take my heart,

Well as tear it apart..

I felt like holding your hand and sleep on your chest…

While touching your neck, Smoothly,

While,

Kiss you forehead…

Day by day,

I felt my love is growing..

It was just only for you..

Not for anyone on this earth..

When life goes on..

How that evil of thoughts,

Entered in to my life,

To spoil my heart and mind,

I say,

It’s the whole time DISTRUSTFUL….

I hate that feeling..

I don’t wanna feel it anymore..

Which makes me hurt..

Feel like dying on your chest..

But baby,

That DISTRUST was not just a feeling,

Letting me feeling down..

Breaking all trust and,

Wiping away my dreams…

Baby, Please don’t do that to me again..

You know it’s so hard to feel..

Like killing me second by second..

If you think that you don’t need me,

Please baby, kill me at once…

I’m not angry with you..

But please don’t cheat on me again..

Don’t scold me again honey…

It’s so hard to endure…

All I have to say is,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..

It’s not just a feeling that comes out of me..

It’s just a feeling that has rooted in me…

which overflows..

Because GOD has sent you only for me..

Totally for me..

Not to share..

You are only mine forever..

Baby, This forgiveness is not a weakness in me..

But the strong bind that I have made to be with your forever..

Loving you, loving you and loving you…

By Ushani Balasooriya..

I love this always baby...

Land of sorrows

Ocean of tears

Value of troubles

End of life

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I DO LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KEEP MY WORD

I know you'll stay this way, for always *****.......

thank you for loving me.....

ME WAITING:-)

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